New year - New Determinations - New Hope

New year - 2011

Welcome 2011...
Good bye 2010...
2010 memories will remain as past...
Bad memories turn into scar...
Try so hard to forget it...
Good memories turn into memory...
Try so hard to remember it...


New Determination

Try to further my study...
Try to get a new job...
Try to get a driving license...
Try to be a better person...
Try to change bad attitude in me...


New Hope

Hoping that my sisters will always fine and healthy...
Hoping that my daddy will get a good luck...
Hoping that my mummy will always be a toughest housewife...
Hoping that I will make more money...
Hoping that my heart will still the same...

8 Nov 2010

Its been a month I worked at D'One Mart,Labuan. Only for temporary until I got a suitable and permanent job.. Now I have to cancel my ambition to further my study for now... Because of money of course, and further more, my sister need more money than me.. She have to do chemo and operation too.. So, I have to plan once again..

My plan now
-Work and try to find a mechanical job, make it permanent.
-I will further my study after my finance is already stable and I can support everything myself.
-Before marry(or after married), I will have my own car and buy a new house for my parents.

Okay, there's a FEW of my plan for now that i have to accomplish it first. Don't waste any time! U can do it Nniesa, because Allah always be with u.... (^_^)

Ramadhan...

Next week will be celebrating Hari Raya... Little bit excited and little bit sad coz this year little bit slow to me..not very a good year,not lucky 2010.. I hope this year will pass quickly and 2011..here we come with a new adventure and a whole new determination.. I already think for my new determination for next year coz mine one this year was not achieved.. It really sad to let go my dream and passion left behind.. My dad will not agree with my decision to enter dance school.. He'll be mad for sure,better not to break his heart... Well,mechanical is fun also but its kinda hard for a girl to find a job like that unless if I got experience... I hope i can get into any University next year,if my dad agree with my decision to further my study to the next level.. but i consider it if my dad got money to support my study.. If he doesn't have money, then i'll have to postpone it.. And of coz, i'll have find a real job for me.. Its hard to live in this real world if u don't have money.. everything must have money.. I wish that my family were rich,but if we were rich..can i be this mature and always think wat i want to do for my future? I think not... better live in simplicity and full of joy with my family and friends! Yeah,thats for sure.. Always keep me down to earth and be a humility person... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

Times moving on....

Hey Blog... Long time no update from me here... been busy lately to manage my life to make it good and easy for me to do it...My sister already married with her love one.. I'm happy for her,if that makes her good and happy all the time then i'll be happy too as a sister... May Allah bless her always and hoping that Allah gives her more opportunity to live longer.. Amin...

ME?? Owh God....please give me a strength to keep going on... too many responsible on my shoulders.. Its hard to be the eldest, especially me.. Second sister got cancer, and the last one down syndrome.. Maybe I dun have to think about Nurul anymore coz she's got husband to take care of her... How about Cinta? My mum already talked to me bout her,if there not longer anymore in this world, she ask me to take care of her.. Of coz i'll take care of her, she's my sister.. Thus, she's so special..maybe one day she can bring a luck to our family... Who know? Am I rite? Plus, special child is really2 special... Its a good deeds for the rest of ur life.. I really love my family so much..my family is my everything, family come first.. I'll do anything for them,make them happy and proud of me.. I want to be a good daughter for them, which is they could count on me on everything... but,my bf said that i'm over to my family, too much to take care and make them happy but not taking care of myself and making something that really good to myself.. but i'm happy the way I am now.. At least I now how to make myself happy.. =)

BOYFRIEND.... I don't know how to explain this but its really2 complicated relationship for now..1 month ago, we have kind of situation that he's not msging or calling me at all bcoz of something.. but I keep on msg him and hoping that he'll forgive me.. then when we got the connection back, he told me that he want to start back with me from beginning like we were friends b4.. I just accept his offer but my heart like can't take it, yes,i'm so in love with him.. So crazy bout him... I know he love me also but i think that he's still doubt on me.. But the weird thing is sometime he's act like we were couple but sometime not.. i'm really confused rite now, what our relationship now? He never say 'break-up' with me, yet he never say 'love' me either.. It was hurt,everytime we talked on the phone or msging, to accept that I can't love him in front of him,juz love him from my heart... I ask already about our relationship,but he couldn't tell me coz he said that its too hard for him to explain.. He was hurt,hurt bcoz of me.. Maybe I make him so jealous..that I don't know bout it... Now, still struggling to win his heart back.. but sometime i don't have a feeling to love him.. I'm sulking to death coz he never excessive me, not even once.. Still waiting for him to do that someday.. Hoping that he'll love me like I love him... Thank God coz make us meet and have chance to loving each other...

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Gloomy Day for Me...

Today i got bad news from my sister... our fren, Siti Nurhidayah, has passed away yesterday... Oh my God..i can't believe it at 1st,n then i saw her FB wall tat she has passed away.. My eyes run in tears n all my memories wit her suddenly flashbacks in my mind... she's really a strong girl I've ever meet.. May she rest in peace.. Al-Fatihah...

Can't Wait!

I can't for my Convocation Day this April...!!! I'll meet my frens and my hubbie.... Still have to think wat i'm gonna wearing on tat day... I have it on my mind, but its really RED for me.. its my old dress but can wear it again..coz i dun wear it everyday coz its so over elegant...hehehe... Well, have to make up my mind before the day come! ^_^

Trip to KK-Sipitang!

Waahhhh.....so exhausted! Juz come back from Sipitang,Sabah...my mum's village... but it was fun..hehehe... but lonely coz my cousin,Mahirah at Kuching lar... no fren there... but its okie...at there we all actually want to celebrate our grandmother's birthday surprise... Best taw!!! my grandmother have no idea tat time tat we all celebrating her birthday..hahaha! but it was awesome birthday surprise ever for my grandmother... coz she got a lot of presents....hehe.. me only give her bracelet... nice2 one..heheh... During at KK, we have 1 day to go out.... me sempat jgak la buy 1 baju...huh..rambang mata tgk SALE sini sana...! huhuhuhuhu....i'm so sad coz dun have money... money pun daddy yg bagi... kena jimat2 nie.. hish3... Nurul berabis dia shopping sana... buy high heels some more...so jealous...huhu... i want to buy too but everthing it looks the same for me... i like unik design n must be GLAM gitu...hahaha! Ada 1 but too damn expensive!!! it cost RM99...GOD....if i rich i'll buy it rite away..haha! tp itu hanya la khayalan...hehehehehe.... even rich people will be shock wit tat price... K la...so lonely actually... MISS my hubbie so much... ^__^

I want to lose weight!

I'm so damn fat now... i dunno why this is happen to me... since i goin to Kuching, i gain a lot of weight.... currently, my weight now is 66kg!!!! I dun wan to believe it,but its true... I've check my BMI juz now..its shows tat i'm overweight.. it was 27.. normal BMI is 24.9... OMG...i wan to do some exercise n control my appetite! Have to calculate the calorie also... According to my age, the maximum calorie for a day was 2000 calorie... so,tat means i have to watch wat i eat everyday.. it wasn't so hard actually but the 'exercise' part was the most hard activity... hehehehe... but i have to do it no matter wat.. so, Chayo2!!!!

Bored!

I'm reli damn bored rite now at home... dunno wat to do... i want to find a job to take away my bored quickly....huhuhuhuhu....

Sad......

So sad lar..... my dad's friend said maybe the job available in the end of tiz month... huhuhuhu... i want to get a job faster... dun wanna stuck in tiz house oredy... i dun wanna be FAT!!!!! It's horrible if i'm fat...huhuhuhu... i reli wanna get a job... watever job tat suits me... i hope so once again....

Job??!!

Fuh...at last ada jgk job yg boleh dbuat kat Labuan nie.... actually byk job yg bleh dbuat kat Labuan nie... tp sijil mana ada...blum ada yg sah lg... Speaking of certificate, me convo in April this year.... OMG....i'm so happy!!! Coz i can meet my friends tat i reli miss so much.... (miss my BF also..hehehehe) Dunno when i got the chance to see them all after this... Actually got plan in my head now..but not reli sure bout tat yet coz its kinda having fun thing..hehehe.. I plan to stay 1 or 2 nite in KK wit all my friends, whoever want to join, n having fun together! U know...making sweet memories of a lifetime...hehehe... Oh ya,bout tat job... my job was clerk... actually it was a pretty easy job 4 me..maybe..hehehehehe.... My bos is my dad's friend also... they're contractor, so i think dun have to work all da time... i hope the salary is good as the work....hehehe... hope so....