ME?? Owh God....please give me a strength to keep going on... too many responsible on my shoulders.. Its hard to be the eldest, especially me.. Second sister got cancer, and the last one down syndrome.. Maybe I dun have to think about Nurul anymore coz she's got husband to take care of her... How about Cinta? My mum already talked to me bout her,if there not longer anymore in this world, she ask me to take care of her.. Of coz i'll take care of her, she's my sister.. Thus, she's so special..maybe one day she can bring a luck to our family... Who know? Am I rite? Plus, special child is really2 special... Its a good deeds for the rest of ur life.. I really love my family so much..my family is my everything, family come first.. I'll do anything for them,make them happy and proud of me.. I want to be a good daughter for them, which is they could count on me on everything... but,my bf said that i'm over to my family, too much to take care and make them happy but not taking care of myself and making something that really good to myself.. but i'm happy the way I am now.. At least I now how to make myself happy.. =)
BOYFRIEND.... I don't know how to explain this but its really2 complicated relationship for now..1 month ago, we have kind of situation that he's not msging or calling me at all bcoz of something.. but I keep on msg him and hoping that he'll forgive me.. then when we got the connection back, he told me that he want to start back with me from beginning like we were friends b4.. I just accept his offer but my heart like can't take it, yes,i'm so in love with him.. So crazy bout him... I know he love me also but i think that he's still doubt on me.. But the weird thing is sometime he's act like we were couple but sometime not.. i'm really confused rite now, what our relationship now? He never say 'break-up' with me, yet he never say 'love' me either.. It was hurt,everytime we talked on the phone or msging, to accept that I can't love him in front of him,juz love him from my heart... I ask already about our relationship,but he couldn't tell me coz he said that its too hard for him to explain.. He was hurt,hurt bcoz of me.. Maybe I make him so jealous..that I don't know bout it... Now, still struggling to win his heart back.. but sometime i don't have a feeling to love him.. I'm sulking to death coz he never excessive me, not even once.. Still waiting for him to do that someday.. Hoping that he'll love me like I love him... Thank God coz make us meet and have chance to loving each other...
